Relationships and I don't mix. I haven't had many relationships, but the ones I have had all ended badly. It has been a while since I was on the dating scene, and the whole thing is just a bit scary. I have no idea where to meet people! I have tried Match.com, SingleParentMeet.com, Plenty of Fish and ChristianSingles. So far, I have had no luck! It seems that most men are looking for skinny/athletically toned women who have never been married and who have no children. This is obviously not me!
Today I came to a realization and made a decision. In the past, I have prayed that I would find that special "someone." The lessons at church have taught me that God wants us to be happy and that there is someone out there for each of us. This is all well and good, but it seems to put me no closer to finding Mr. Right. I have realized that I am not putting my full faith in God. I am asking Him for help, but I am not sitting back and listening to what He has to say. I pray, but then go out there and keep trying, all the while not having complete faith in Him. My decision is to leave it in God's hands. I am going to stop trying so hard and start listening and paying attention to what God has in store for me.